Wishing upon a star
09 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Lifestyle, Relationships, Women
After a long day I stood outside in the back yard looking up at sky wishing for a shooting star to pass me by, I did not see one but yet I made a wish just in case one had passed behind a cloud.
Situations can turn from good to bad so easily, sometimes it doesn’t take long either. When you see less and less time of each other and suspicions start to raise their ugly heads, dark clouds can form over your head and it seems that the situation can only get worse because you have tried to make it better but it takes two to tango doesn’t it and if the other half does not wish to change things for the better then all you can do is watch your relationship fade out.
I fear the loss of him deeply and yet a part of me is constantly frustrated with him and longing for him to show me some affection. He seems to only want one thing and defines affection as being merely physical, telling me that he has needs; boy have I heard that line so many times before in the past when someone is at the start of their straying from me.
However there is a vicious circle that a lot of men tend to forget – in order for a woman to reciprocate the physical advances she first needs to be turned on emotionally first, she needs to know that she is loved and wanted, that he needs her, cares for her, she needs to feel that she is the most precious person to him besides his own children.
Sad though it may seem but I have found myself shedding the odd tear at the television when I see music videos where the guy and the girl are falling in love, I also see the ones about fighting etc and can so relate and I sit here in these four walls which I am stuck in wishing for a fairytale whereupon I am cherished and loved for who and what I am. I may be, to him, considered to be a monster but that is the last thing that I am, I am just a girl wanting a guy to love her. As that too much to ask? As I play Russian Roulette with my relationship’s future I got to thinking of Russian Roulette – Rihanna and how it is a perfect metaphor for some of the goings on in my relationship, especially when I await his return from work or from a night out drinking.
A man’s logic – a mystery to me
06 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Lifestyle, Men, Relationships, Women
My man finished work at 10pm, it is pouring with rain outside and so I called him and he did not answer his phone, as usual when I call him. Then I called his work and a woman gave the phone to him, fair enough he works with men and women. I then offered to call him a cab home and pay for the fare, I didn’t want him to get soaked waiting for the train. But he said “No, I’ve got a lift to the train station and I’ll catch the train.” - But I’ve just offered you a cab! Why does he prefer the lift from a work mate to the train station and wait in the car till the train comes?
All sorts crops up in my mind like – WHO is giving him this lift that he prefers their lift to my cab?
Last night also, I left a post on his wall saying “I love you.” (We’ve been together over a year now and he often says it to me at home but never when we’re out with friends) and he wrote back “What do you want?” then I said “I just want to tell you that I love you.” To which he wrote back “I no… mwah!” He didn’t even spell know the right way, it was so casual and brush off.
Are these the beginnings of “I’ve met someone else?” or “I’m fed up with you” ? Or is this paranoia on my part. He always seems to not even sit near me when we’re out together, he never holds my hand when we walk down the street (he used to at the beginning) and he never says he loves me when in front of his mix of male and female friends.
I’m confused. From a guy that says that ENTP’s and INFJ’s are perfect for each other, why is he distancing himself?
The first Makeover
05 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Birthmarks, Charities, Fashion, Fine Art Photography, Lifestyle, Men, Photography, Women Tags: birthmark, birthmark foundation, charity, fashion, fashion restyle, makeover
I have invited a number of people to put themselves forward for one person to be selected to be my first official makeover. This of course is free and will be displayed on the Editions Photography and Art website on our makeover page to advertise the makeover/fashion restyle package.
I’m quite excited to see the responses and there will be so much to organise, but with this and the planned up coming Charity Live Makeover it should be great fun.
The lucky person will receive a full colour analysis, personal shop, fashion restyle, hair and makeup and photo shoot, the images will then appear on the Editions website.
After this, we are planning a Charity Live Makeover to raise money for the Birthmark Support Group (a charity very close to me with the issues that I have had with my daughter and her vascular birthmark which has been causing her pain for over 10 weeks now since it became ulcerated, but there are children with much worse birthmarks than hers, some which can cause life-threatening complications and a great number of hospitals around the country tend not to have much experience with the treatment of these birthmarks).
We hope that the event will take place round about late October, perfect timing for Halloween and for the start of the Autumn/Winter 2010 season.
Personality types – How well do you know your partner?
04 Sep 2010 3 Comments
in Lifestyle, Men, Relationships, Women Tags: briggs meyers, jung, life, lifestyle, love, men, personality types, psychology, relationships, women
According to the other half and his partners in crime for the evening Carl Gustav Jung and of course Briggs Meyers I am an INFJ (Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging personality) as I partook in the personality test to really pigeon-hole myself into a “type”.
Scary to think really that according to “science” we cannot have our own personality; it has to be one of these types. And yes, very clever indeed as I was read aloud the description of my type and even quite proud of finding out that my type is the rarest of the types in the world – ooh lucky me, I thought. However, what concerned me more was the fact that my own partner was testing me because he wanted to know what type I was in relation to his – compatibility. Turned out, according to him that we’re perfect for each other, but it raised the question: How well do you actually know me? Perhaps hardly at all considering that I was being profiled by this test.
It further intrigued him into calling up his mother on the telephone and asking her but apparently already knowing what the result would be. We all know our mothers well. But how well do we actually know our partners?
I spent a great deal of time (whilst trying to get to sleep) last night pondering this question. How well do I know him? How well does he know me?
We have been together for over a year now and I can quite unsafely say that I do not think that we know each other that well at all. What I know is my partner in a nutshell but I do not know the depths of what really makes him tick, nor does he know this of me.
If we were to take a quiz about what we knew about each other and how compatible we were, well I know for a fact that the quizzes are always in our favour, however that is because we know each other’s categories but not the subcategories.
Do we need to partake in psychological tests in order to understand each other? Do we need to turn to science to help us better our relationships?
What type are you and would you put your trust in science to better your relationship or figure out what makes him or her tick?
I would like to perhaps create a mental chart that would allow me to explore more about my partner’s psyche, peel back the layers and delve into each category; finding the subcategories and perhaps then I could understand how his mind works without the help of a psychologist – I am certain it would be a rather crazy and colourful experience, exploring him for WHO he is and not for how much of an ENTP he is.
